now i realized . what i wish for last time came true.
i wonder are humans and animals the same? i wonder am i really
given birth by the mother im having now? i want to turn back the hands of time badly.
i last time wish i rather she treat me coldly than scolding me and cursing me
all the time. EVERDAY with out fail i get scolding. i guess i suck at being a human
who knows i suck at everything i do. EVERY POST i have all sounds immature . NO ones mature. when will some thing really nice can make me feel happiness ever come. I WANT TO TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME I WANT TO BEG GOD NOT TO BE BORN IN SINGAPORE . NOT BY THIS MOTHER. I HATE THIS FREAKKING LIFE OF MINE. EVERDAY IS THE SAME , GO SCHOOL COME BACK HOME EAT THEN SLEEP . EVEN WHEN GO OUT I FEEL SO DEAD I FEEL SO I DO
NOT BELONG TO WHERE I AM ITS LIKE MY HEART IS SOME WHERE ELSE IM SO EMPTY EVEN
IF I WERE TO FALL IN LOVE BE IN RELATIONSHIP NOTHING WOULD CHANGE. i feel so
life-less . by the way. D .gray man that anime was great. i rather become an akuma than being a human with boring and endless cycle. From what i see from some other parents
some supports their children on what they want to become. What about mine.
papa have his own problem . 2 elder sister no need say. Mother i don't
know what she's thinking . i feel so dead in this family. i know some other
people are the same. I DONT KNOW HOW TO BREAK OUT OF THIS. i want to go break
off the chain so badly!