WAIT ARHS I GO SHIT FIRST :D (PAUSEDD6:25)
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wait ar i eat the COLD LIVER OIL i dunt know wtf is that
but my mother ask me eat 3 per day. sian lahs sick sick sick !
having slight fever . :( liyana is so blessed . so many people
love her but not me ): no one loves me . no one sayangs me D:
im doing so much stupid things .So foolish . I dun't even know
what im doing all this time . the path i choose to walk the path
i take is it the right one ? even i myself ! dunt even know .
I KNOW MY SELF BEST but not this time . im stuck .
I'm waiting patiently . ~mabe not ~ WHATEVER all
this thinking and worrying is making me irritated .
what to do narhs! my life now has no privacy ! what
to do ? im still worrying . i guess i will tire out one day .
Now then i came to think of it IM A FAILURE .
I ALWAYS LOSE TO OTHERS. I EVEN LOSE TO LIYANA .
sigh such a failure i am NO ONE KNOWs what im
thinking inside how i've been feeling inside and what i want inside .
Not even anyone thats close to me . My angers , my tears
, my pain , my hate and my saddness are all bottled up in
my heart . Oh ya i remember 1 thing my mom this morning said .
she said you any how play play guys sweet talk to you ,
you siao siao. JI BAI SIA SHE DUN'T EVEN KNOW HOW I
FEEL ANY HOW SAY THE FUCK OUT OF ME .
ah i wan to feel angry i wanna be angry but
i dunt know why i just keep typing and
thinking not feeling anything im like soul-less ~

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