Sigh.. its night i no mood audition.. looking at my previous posts and i thought the post before is the grown up or not a grown up i find that that applies to me too.. Say.. only i told shama about one of my secrets of a being a lamer .. and i thought all this while i do not treasure friendship .. but i do not know why i feel so weak when it comes to thinking being a betrayer and betray my friends.. 2I girls changed me i hate this habit the way they changed me has become a habit i hate that habit but no choice.. i want to say to them , the 2I girls what i have told shama but judging from what i see .. ok.. not really so call judge but take it as from what i see they are not old enough to withstand what i am going to say.. AND I AM NOT SAYING THEM IMMATURE , i just do not know in what way i should put it as . But i main point is i am having difficulty saying out. 2I girls if you see this do not feel bad . If u are angry at me means you do not know what the whole thing is about i mean this blog is like a dairy not really a dairy but it is what i can say my troubles out and i am not SAYING that you all are immature . and i repeat if u are angry means you do not understand what i am saying .. if you are angry you might misunderstood me just come and ask me .. and don't give me attitude when you misunderstood someone .. ONE of the girls might be persistent on putting the blame on me of saying this because they dare not face the fact .I understand sec 2 should not be that mature yet may be i am too much may be i am eager to be my deep self ..deep down inside .. i will not say what i think deep down because once i said deep down means deep secret even my closes kin does not know what i am thinking. AND PLEASE DO NOT MAKE WILD GUESSES .. i know some of you might think ( for e.g ) " eeyer diana say like that , like as if she so mature ..deep down some more who don't know what she think of cause think her self very mature la " i am not being sensitive .. its true 1 years together with 2I girls how i don't know their character i even can guess out what your some times think about me trust me i am not so easy to deceive i like to act stupid .. and blur as if i do not know any information ( ok i sometimes is really stupid , take my chinese for example , even nursery Chinese also i can't read)the stupid i mean like huh is it ? AND i know that when you were told something for e.g erm.. wait give me a second let me think . i was taught actually this thing can eat but need to cook . Then you were told this thing is non-consumable .. then one day we brought up this chat then i said this thing can eat but need to cook then u keep insisting on what you were told was correct . SO my main story is what for continue the conversation if you so persistent on saying to us what you were told ? Doesn't this might bring up a quarrel ?
sorry if i made you think what i said just now was rubbish its late at night may be i am a little sleepy and do not know what i am saying . Pardon me if this post has offended you ! WAIT! if this offended you , YOU DON'T GIVE ME UR FUCKING ATTITUDE I HATE PEOPLE GIVING ME ATTITUDE JUST TELL ME YOUR PROBLEM , YOU DON'T SAY YOU MIGHT MISUNDERSTOOD ME.. PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME ATTITUDE . JUST TELL ME ..YOU DARE ATTITUDE ME MEANS U DARE TO TELL ME UR PROBLEM , SOME PEOPLE ATTITUDE ME FOR NO REASON LIKE I SO EASY BULLY KaNiNa ChouJiBai ==