I feel so giddy now ha ha , i feel like i want to close my eyes.But i got this feeling after i close and wake up i will feel sick , i know some of your will think that i am paranoid but i am not no body know me well accept for myself , no one can read or understand my feelings . Even if u ask and i tell you , you still will not felt the pain and sadness in me . I do not know if it is true but whenever i thought of it i felt like giving up on my life and thinking of what have i done in my past life . Last month which is April , my mom said " in 3months time we are moving and can only buy one room housing development board (which is HDB) flat and if we can't manage to find a house we will live in streets , and i will change your school. " and when i heard that i was like why? can't i run away from it? this is my life? this is the hardship i need to take? people usually say everyone will learn when they suffered a fall . but i was wondering is that a instant fall or what? but.. mine is falling slowly falling , and this is what i usually feel a instant fall is not that painful as a slow fall because when u do not know that you are falling and suddenly you fell it is much better then when you know that you are falling and during that time you will think that it will be painful and because u think that it may be painful plus the pain u received from the fall it is very painful